I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home.

Monday, June 4, 2012

Quarter of the Way

We're 1/4 of the way through . Cheers! School has been a whirlwind of emotions and obstacles to say the very least. Thus far, I'm more aware now of my flaws then I've ever been in my life. I've developed personal barriers just in the short amount of time that I've been here, and I am more aware of the faults I've always had lying beneath. More details on what I'm trying to overcome here in a future blog. I have come home to my husband with questions on whether this is the right path for us, and come home with smiles and confidence.

I'm unsure of many things but I have to keep in mind . . . that this is a process. If anything, I've learned that much. This process takes time, hours of hardwork, dedication and most of all....patience.  The process is designed to break you, strip you down to your most susceptible self, then build you back up to be better than you'd ever thought possible. I'm learning so much about myself, and for that I'm grateful. I'm building confidence and skills that can be applied anywhere and everywhere. Yes, there will be days where I feel like I don't deserve this opportunity, but those will pass.

At this point, I do know a few things. I know that I have the BEST support system at home a wife/servicemember could ever deserve. I know that I have a class that provides me with the best reinforcement. I know that I belong here. Lastly, I know that I will kick this experience's ass. Challenge Accepted. I'm ready and nowhere to go but up!