I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Hazel Faye's Birth Story

Kit and I started our day on November 26th 2019 at 0345 in the morning.  Bags packed, I put on make up and even curled my hair for the big day.  The night before we didn't go to bed until around 11pm because we were cleaning, packing and making sure everything was set for the big sisters over the next 4 days while we were in the hospital.


Last night of having just 2!


I was incredibly nervous, almost to the point of physically shaking.  This scheduled c-section was different.  I wasn't afforded the luxury of ignorance this go around.  I've seen with my own eyes, pushed medications with my own hands to save the lives of women when things don't go as planned in c-sections.  This was going to be my third time going under the knife.  Can I skate by a third time with a completely boring/healthy delivery?  We'll know today!  We snapped a quick Polaroid of my belly, taped it to the bathroom mirror and wrote a quick note to the kids for when the wake up.  Then off to the hospital!

We parked our new van in the visitor's parking lot (so weird since I typically park just feet away in the employee parking lot) and walked up to the all too familiar unit of my work home the last 1.5 years.  It was so weird checking in as the patient this time!  We checked in at 0500 for the 0700 c-section slot and waited for one of my friends to take us back.

My friend and night nurse who trained me, Kelsie, came to get us and walked us back into Labor and Delivery to get us admitted.  First we dropped off a big basket of snacks at the nurse's station because you have to take care of the people who are taking care of you!  As soon as we rounded the corner my friends clapped and hollered with excitement.  The anticipation was palpable.  Everyone had been waiting 9 long months to find out who this little baby was and today was the day!  We loved the greeting and I think it really surprised Kit and got him even more pumped for the morning.







Kelsie got us roomed, admitted, (Susan only had to stick me twice haha) and then came the wait to be taken to the OR.  That wait was the worst.  Our case almost got bumped due to another emergency, but luckily we stayed on time.  During the wait my friends popped in one by one to wish us luck, give a quick hug and even Dr Wilson popped in to say that he could stay late to assist my doctor.  Very nice of him! My two friends who I asked to special me arrived about a hour before we rolled back, Staci and Studdard.  When you are a labor and delivery nurse and deliver at the hospital you work at...you get a few perks.  One of the perks is choosing who takes care of you, who numbs you up and who gets to be part of your big day.  I knew if shit hit the fan with my body in the OR that they would act quick, know exactly what to do, advocate for me and not hesitate.




My Mom and her husband drove 2.5 hours that morning to be there for the big event and that meant so much.  My Mom hasn't been able to be at any of my deliveries, so to have loved ones waiting in the waiting room was very special.





0700 came and it was time to roll back to the OR!  My friends came to get me, my Mom went to the waiting room, said goodbye to Kit (he doesn't get to come back to the OR until my spinal is finished and I'm completely prepped for surgery) and away we went.





It was finally time to see and meet this little baby of mine! Boy or Girl??  Elliot met us back in the OR to do my spinal.  I remember he got a quick blood pressure and it was so high (156/110)!  I was shaking, lips shattering from nerves/cold temp and so nervous.  I nestled down into Staci's chest and waited for the "bee sting" in the back that would let me not feel a thing from the chest down for the next several hours.





This was the first step I was nervous about because if for some reason the anesthesiologist can't get the spinal to work, they're forced to put you under general anesthesia.  General means they have to put you to sleep so that you don't feel anything during the surgery, so not only do you not get to hear that first cry or see their fresh little face but your spouse isn't allowed back in the OR either.  Thankfully he was quick and got it the first try!  I laid down quickly and felt that warm rush start in my toes and work it's way up quick.

Then the OR got busy!  I went all numb, both doctors walked in (Dr Daily and Dr Wilson) to test me, the drape went on and someone left to bring Kit in!  Once a c-section starts, it's pretty fast work up until the baby is out (6-9 minutes after the first cut).  Kit and I just waited, then the tugging sensation started so I knew we were getting close...

Then that first cry.  It's The Best Thing In The World To Hear.  I've been with many mothers who never hear that cry, so when you do hear it...it's everything.  Kit and I both started crying as soon as that sound hit our ears.  Staci's plan was to have NICU do a quick assessment, then bring baby back in to us to reveal the gender.  NICU took baby, dried it off and Staci walked baby back in behind Kit.  She had her hand over baby's naughty bits and said, "You guys ready? It's a GIRL!"








AHHH!!!!!! We Knew It!!! HAZEL FAYE it is!!!  We both just start crying again...3 GIRLS!!









Kit followed Staci back to the NICU island with baby.  She needed a little C-PAP, but ultimately got to stay with us afterwards.  The next biggest surprise was her weight.  Staci came back in to the OR and told me she weighed 8lbs 12oz.







"Bull$hit !"  was my reply haha!  My biggest baby by far!  Norah was 7lbs 2oz and Scarlett was 6lbs 9 oz.  My belly was ALL baby these last few months!





Kit and Hazel went back to my recovery room while I finished getting stitched up.  I got a little nauseous in the OR, but thankfully didn't throw up.  The closure was smooth and my uterus did great!  The next few hours were a little of a blur.  Fundal rubs, breastfeeding, staring at Hazel, Kit texting/calling everyone to tell them we had a little GIRL.











Later that afternoon in postpartum, Norah and Scarlett met their newest baby sister.  November 26th was such a magical day.

















Happy Birthday sweet Hazel Faye.  You are SO loved.

Friday, January 10, 2020

Hazel Faye: 1 Month








Our sweet Hazel baby is 1 Month Old!  My I forgot how quickly the days run together when you have a newborn.

Weight/Length: 8lbs 6oz

Diapers: NBN

Clothing: NBN

Eating: Breastfeeding 8-10 times a day

Sleeping: 2-4 hour stretches




I haven't typed her birth story up but when I do I'll hyperlink it in her next monthly update!

Hazel is pretty easy going (like her sisters before her).  We don't get much awake time with her at this point so we haven't seen her little personality just yet.






SLEEP.  Damn it's so funny how you block out certain phases with raising children or downplay them later on.  For the life of us, my husband and I couldn't remember the newborn sleep deprivation with Scarlett.  Good thing we blocked it out.  I AM SO TIRED.  I think it's the awful combination of being a night shift worker, not sleeping but 1-2.5 hours at a time while pregnant and now breastfeeding a newborn every 2-3 hours but I'm dying.  This sleep deprivation stuff is kicking my butt this go around.  Thankfully my husband is willing to stay up a little the first half of the night so that I can catch a good 4 hour stretch.  I pump at like 7pm then he wakes me up at 11-12a to switch off BECAUSE little miss doesn't quite have her nights/days figured out yet.  Yippee!  I know it will get better, but in the midst of it, it sucks.  Also when you are on your third baby you definitely don't have the luxury of sleeping when the baby sleeps because two other humans depend on you as well.  We have had the incredible luck of having two great sleepers before so hopefully our luck holds out for one more baby.  Each of our kids starting sleeping through the night around 6-8 weeks so fingers crossed!

BREASTFEEDING.  I advocated big time this pregnancy to not have my c/s until 39 weeks, no earlier.  As a labor and delivery nurse I know first hand that the closer to 40 weeks gestation a baby is born the better the breastfeeder they are.  They're more awake at the breast, stronger suck, better latch and more efficient at the breast.  This was the main reason why I begged my OB to let me go an extra week being pregnant.  Crazy reason, right?







She latched great right away and she's been a pretty rockstar feeder.  On our third day in the hospital she caught a cold and was congested for about 2-3 weeks afterward.  Because of that we think she didn't transfer the milk very well and she didn't put on weight like we wanted.  Luckily it cleared up, she got better at breastfeeding and the weight started to come back on!  The weight gain is always a struggle with these breast fed babes in the beginning!  She didn't get back birth weight until week 3, but we made it there eventually!

The older girls just love her.  Poor Scarlett went through some Mama withdrawl our first week, but I can't blame her for that.  We solved it by giving her some one on one time and really carving out some attention for her those first few weeks.  She asks to hold the baby and will say "Ahhhh Baby" while she scrunches up her little nose. Norah has been smitten since minute one.  She's the best helper and baby holder.  She asks DAILY to hold Hazel, talks to her like I do ("Oh baby you want your milk? It's ok, Norah's here!")  It's pretty adorable.  I love the 4 year age gap.  Unfortunately it's the fall/winter season so RSV/Flu is rampant.  We've established rules with the older kids to not touch her face/hands, NO kissing the baby anywhere and "hand tizer" for all when we leave/enter the house. We've kept her healthy this far, I hope we can get to March without any hospitalizations!








In the hospital we celebrated her first Thanksgiving!  Nothing too eventful, but it was great to get us all together for a few hours, even if we were still in the hospital.


Happy Thanksgiving!








Then we celebrated her first Christmas right before she turned a month old!  Such an exciting month!  Of course, little Hazel slept through both, but was still involved just the same.



First pic with Santa


Christmas Eve Hike


Christmas with cousins


Merry Christmas!








Enjoy some pictures of Hazel's first month with us!



Happy due date, Dec 3, 2019

First blow out!


Maka time

2 Weeks Old

First Ped appt at 1 week!

First sponge bath, she loved the head scrub




Big sister came with us to her one month appt!


We always knew we wanted at least three kids and I love it that she's finally here.  Our family feels full and filled with love, loud noises, and so many little hands always asking to hold the baby. We are pretty overwhelmed right now but as these seasons do, this will fade.  Kit and I will get stronger.  The baby will get slightly less needy and we'll adapt.  Right now we're living the life of diapers, baby cries, toddler messes and preschooler games.  Life couldn't get any better.  Welcome to our family Hazel. We just love you!